my life.

a nice and beautiful day

2011-04-16T03:37:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum everyone.
today i had a nice day and though tiring, i like it.

it started out with fajr prayer and sending off my lil bro to school.
yeah.
since ive started staying at home, ive been the driver, every morning sending him to school.

coming back from sending him, bought roti for breakfast and lay down on my bed reading this good book, titled "Dilema Melayu-Islam, Kurang fikir atau kurang zikir" by Pahrol Mohamad Juoi.
though i havent finish reading it but i read some of it and i think it is a good book..
it talks about many things, real things that relates to life in my country.

and suddenly i fell asleep. aint that funny.

i woke up before 12. and syafiq came into my room. because he's been coming here every day since this week because he has work to do with amir.

we took our lunch together with amir at tanjung restaurant just a couple of minutes from our lot, and headed to Jumaah prayer after that.

then, we went to check on the van. it wasnt ready yet till before 7. and then amir sent me back because i have to go and meet a customer of mine which we have postponed on meeting for a week.

i thought he was chinese..but actually a white guy. thats my first time doing business with a white guy. gave me the money and gave him the product and that was it. it was in pj. then it rained heavily and im stuck under the tunnel nearly for an hour.

made acquaintance with the motorcycle behind me. got to know he is a cop. related to me stories of when he was in training under the Service.. i thought that it was great. though people to be disciplined and strong in the head. also, not many are lucky to undergo such experience..
i wish i could go through one one day.

when the rain was pouring less, i ride off. arrived home. put my stuffs and out again with fatima to take the van.

got back home. went out again, met supplier.deal what there is to deal, then head to sec 7 to meet one customer. trade. went back home.

ate dinner. pray maghrib. out again to tamansari. got it(furniture) in the van and head to damansara damai. all went well. back at home again.

oh yeah, amir got himself a nice bb bold.

arrived home. went up to my room. went downstairs and heard that 2 tyres of amir's father's car got punctured by something that dropped from a contena. nothing to wait for, he took our ride to their location in klang.

amir changed the tyres and waited for the driver to come again because he promised to pay amir's dad 160 for what happened. he eventually paid 200. he was, for me, a responsible person. he could just get away with it when he heard the sound. but he stopped and took a look. i respect that.

we went for late dinner and headed back home afterwards. arrived home nearly 2 am.

sweet dreams everyone.

Hujan yang comel...

2011-01-30T18:13:00.009+08:00

Assalamualaikum everyone..

hari ni aku n famili ak pergi bercuti ke Port Dickson!

sume orang ikut kecuali adik ak coz husband dia kerja..so takkan dia nak ikut n tinggalkan suami dia kan...tak berhati perut lak.. kesian atim tak dapat ikut.. takpe, kitorang selalu ingat atim kat cni nanti.. hehe...

so kitorang bertolak dalam pukul 10 camtu... ikut jalan pergi putrajaya.. then masuk sepang.. tengok rumah kitorang yang nak dekat siap dah..

untuk makluman, dalam bulan 7 atau 8 insyaAllah kitorang akan berpindah ke Enstek.

so selamat tinggal Bukit Jelutong.

from what we can see, the house is near completion and we can't wait to move in to a new place and new environment. despite that, we will miss bukit Jelutong and Shah Alam. dari kecik ak membesar kat Shah Alam. so memang banyak kenangan la ada kat sana.. takpe, tu nanti boleh cerita lain..

lepas tengok rumah kitorang pun teruskan perjalanan ke PD. dalam perjalanan, ipar ak syafiq berborak je dengan ayah ak n ak pulak baca buku Dan Brown The Lost Symbol..

korang pernah baca?

time ak baca tu terlintas satu perkara yang sangat mengejutkan ak..
Katherine, seorang ahli saintis hebat dalam buku ni menjalankan satu eksperimen tentang roh manusia.. biasa la kan mat saleh ni diorang bukan percaya sgt kewujudan roh.. apa yang diorang tau, kalau tak dapat dibuktikan dengan cara santifik so diorang akan tolak sebab kata takde asas.. jadi Katherine ni tau apa dia buat? dia merekacipta sebuah alat penimbang yang berskala supermikro sampai boleh menimbangdan mencatat perubahan yg sgt kecil. and Katherine menjemput abg dia, Peter Solomon, seorang yg sgt kaya, berilmu dan berpengaruh untuk menyaksikan eksperimen yg bakal dijalankan.. at the same time, Katherine ada seorang kenalan yang dah nazak n kawan dia ni kata dia sanggup jadikan badan dia sebagai bahan ujikaji.. so nak jadi cite kawan dia yg nazak ni diletakkan atas alat penimbang hebat ni. alat ni ada lid tutup atasnya supaya bila lid tu tutup takde sebarang benda pun dapat kuar atau masuk...so eksperimennya begini.

orang tu dimasukkan ke dalam alat penimbang di saat dia nyawa2 ikan..Katherine and Peter are observing..the lid sealed him from the outside world..
51.4534644 kg is berat lelaki tu. dan tibalah saat hembusan terakhirnya... nothing changed.. after a moment, what happened was the numbers on the scale had decreased suddenly... the man had become lighter after his death.
the wight change was miniscule, but it was measureable. and the implications wereutterly mind boggling.. u got what i meant here? i leave it up to u to think and ponder..

persoalan yang timbul, adakah roh kita punyai mass/jisim?

Bila da sampai kat PD, mak ayah ak sempat lagi pergi tengok site2 lama diorang memancing dulu masa muda2.. hebat2.. ak tak tengok sangat pun coz masa tu mood tgh ngantuk. tapi dengar la diorang borak apa..

so the journey continues. we went to have our lunch and then straight to our not booked yet hotel.. haha.. leh tak nak bercuti tapi tak book bilik lagi..? tapi alhamdulillah ada bilik kosong... kitorang menetap dekat Residence Desa Lagoon Resort. Resort yang ak pernah menginap dekat 7 8 kali dari ak kecik lagi. mula2 skali yang ak ingat kitorang penah datang sini masa tempat keje lama ayah ak buat family day kat sini.. time tu ak kecik lagi tapi ingat la jugak.

kitorang check in around 3 sebab diorang nak kemas rumah tu dulu.. so sambil tu kitorang tour la cket kota PD yang tengah hujan ni.. dari kat Shah Alam sampai ke cni and sampai skang tengah tulis entri ni ujan tak benti2 lagi.. adeehhh...lama gak ujan kan ari ni.. tapi ayah ak kata dan ak blaja, tak baik n tak elok membenci atau ada rasa tak suka bila hujan turun sebab yg turunkan hujan tu ialah Allah.. so kalau kita benci hujan menunjukkan kita benci juga yang menurunkan hujan tu..so next time hujan tu turun bersyukur je la..hujan tu kan rahmat...

so up till now ak tengah tunggu ujan benti supaya sat lagi boleh mandi pantai!! :)

tadi pun dok tengok tv je...

so until we meet again.. nak sambung baca buku n solat :)

korang pun jangan tak solat ;p

Today 26012011 Rabu

2011-01-26T20:51:00.003+08:00

assalamualaikum everyone.
i think this is the first time im writing this blog in the year of 2011.
i havent been updating any since the last time last year.
never had the mood and never even thought about updating.

well,at least you start and things will slowly run smoothly.

im now at home in Bukit Jelutong.

i think writing a blog is a good thing for many reasons.
one of them is this, u get to read them back later and u get to know what kinda person u were in the past, the experiences u went thru and what u did.

right?

its like a memory bank..
you cant remember every day of your life, so a blog is where u diary them.
so a blog is merely like a diary. not 100% but u can keep ur memory fresh here..if u write in details that is..

anyway, lets talk about what happened today, about my day today.

Alhamdulillah first and foremost all thanks to Allah the Almighty who still gives me strength and the opportunity to breath his air to live.. without His Mercy and Love life would be meaningless and dull.

i woke up around 7 am i dont know why but i managed to pray Fajr, the first prayer of a Muslim in the beginning of the day. yesterday i didnt sleep that late, around 12 bcoz usually i sleep later than that.

after prayer, i went back on my bed waiting for my brother to get prepared for school as i am the one who is gonna drive him to school everyday. thats what brothers are for.. hahahah..

actually i didnt have the time to finish this entry because i remembered i got something to do but i didnt know what it was..hahahah.. so i guess it ends here and i gotta do a new entry for today's activities ;p

Ramadhan Kareem!

2010-08-11T12:17:00.001+08:00

Apapun yang terjadi pada alam ini
Dari yang paling kecil sampai yang paling besar
Insya Allah ada hikmahnya
Sesuai dengan firmanNya
" Ya Tuhan kami tidak ada yang Kau ciptakan dengan sia-sia "

Dari kuman yang tidak kelihatan oleh manusia
Sampai milyaran galaxy yang maha luas
Semua mempunyai fungsi masing-masing

Begitu pula dengan peristiwa manusia
Dari penderitaan yang amat memilukan
Sampai kesenangan yang melenakan
Semua ada hikmahnya

Terkadang manusia lupa bila diuji dengan penderitaan
Hingga ingkar pada Allah karena penderitaan yang dideritanya
Padahal di balik penderitaan ada hikmahnya juga
Berupa jiwa yang semakin kuat, tabah, dan tak tergoyahkan

Maka jangan lekas membuang yang pahit
Siapa tahu itu adalah ubat bagimu
Jangan lekas mengatakan Allah tidak adil!
Siapa tahu Allah di lain waktu memberikan nikmatNya

Jangan lekas mengeluh bila tak mendapatkan sesuatu yang diinginkan
Siapa tahu Allah akan memberikan sebagai pengganti yang terbaik
Dan jangan lekas memisahkan sesuatu yang kamu benci dan kau anggap hina
Siapa tahu apa yang kamu benci dan kamu anggap hina
Justru dicintai Allah!
Dan jangan segera meminum yang manis
Siapa tahu itu adalah racun bagimu.

Siapa yang menyangka
Jika sampah yang dibuang-buang manusia
Justeru bisa dijadikan kompos dan energi elektrik

Siapa yang menduga
Rambut jagung yang dibuang
Saat makan jagung rebus atau jagung bakar
Di Russia bisa dijadikan jamu, ubat untuk kesehatan.

Siapa yang mengira
Gerak rumput atau lalang yang bergoyang
Adalah prototaip gerakan pesawat terbang

Siapa menyangka
Nyamuk yang kecil itu
Membuat kaya raya para pengusaha obat anti nyamuk

Siapa yang protes terhadap keringat
Mungkin lupa
Keringat yang dianggap menganggu
Telah melahirkan ribuan jenis minyak wangi sejak berabad-abad
Dan telah melahirkan ribuan perusahaan dengan berbagai model
Membuka lapangan kerja dan melahirkan foto model iklan

Siapa yang membenci virus
Ternyata virus yang tak kelihatan itu
Telah melahirkan para peneliti dan para ilmuwan
Betapa banyak doktor tercipta karena virus

Apa lagi?
Coba lihat air mata saat kau menangis
Itu adalah alat pembersih alamiah dan mengurangi beban psikologi
Terasa sangat lega dan beban yang terpikul terasa ringan
Jangan meremehkan air mata!
Ribuan judul puisi bisa lahir karena tangisan
Ribuan judul drama, sandiwara, film dan sinetron tercipta karena air mata
Ribuan judul novel tercipta berkat air mata

Dan jangan lupa ...... !
Air mata wanita adalah senjata yang sangat tajam
yang dapat meruntuhkan kerajaan dan singgahsana para emperator!
Siapa yang tahan melihat air mata wanita ?
Maka menangislah kamu selagi bisa menangis
Tak ada larangan untuk menangis
Bahkan tangisan para auliya
Di keheningan malam, saat tahajjud dan sujud
Adalah kunci pembuka pintu syurga!

Apa lagi?
Lihat kulitmu yang tipis dan halus mulus
Tebalnya hanya sepersekian mili yang membungkus daging
Siapa yang mengira
Kulit yang dianggap biasa adalah jaket yang paripurna bagi daging
Tergores sedikit saja, maka kuman segera datang menyerang daging
Terjadilah pembusukan dan borok
Di akhirat kulit pun akan menjadi saksi
Dan dimintai pertanggungjawaban

Bila merasa diri tidak cantik sehingga kurang bersyukur
Datanglah ke rumah sakit
Kau akan menemukan berbagai jenis penyakit yang bisa juga menyerangmu
Maka nikmat Tuhan yang mana lagi yang kau dustakan?

Tak ada yang sia-sia apapun yang diciptakanNya
Bila ada sesuatu ciptaanNya yang kelihatannya tak berguna
Itu bukan berarti sia-sia!
Hanya manusia belum menelitinya atau tidak tahu fungsinya
Yakinlah ada hikmah di balik penciptaanNya
Dan jika mau ditulis hikmah setiap ciptaanNya
Niscaya manusia tak mampu melakukannya
Karena tak terhingga banyaknya!

Maka bahagialah orang yang pandai mengambil hikmah atau pelajaran dari setiap kejadian, baik yang langsung menimpa dirinya atau yang menimpa orang lain.

Bahagialah orang selalu melewati hari-harinya dengan membawa dan menggunakan " Kaca mata hikmah ", karena dengan kaca mata hikmah ini, dia dapat melihat seluas- luasnya dari setiap kejadian apapun, dengan kaca mata hikmah, seakan dia melihat sesuatu dari segala sisi, dari segala arah, dari segala sudut, dari multi dimensi, hingga dia dapat menghadapi hidup penuh kebahagiaan dan ketenteraman jiwa.

Orang yang selalu memandang kejadian dengan " kaca mata hikmah " akan mendapat bimbingan dan hidayah Tuhan yang sangat besar, orang seperti ini akan selalu berpikir positif melihat suatu kejadian, hingga yang dalam dirinya penuh dengan hikmah dan kebajikan, yang ada dalam dirinya, baik, baik dan selalu kebaikan. Hatinya begitu lapang, kelapangan dadanya meluas, terkadang tak terjangkau oleh manusia kebanyakan.

Mari kita kembali ke bulan Ramadhan, mari kita sambut bulan Ramadhan yang penuh hikmah ini dengan mengambil hikmahnya, mengambil intisarinya iaitu taqwa, dengan ketaqwaan orang pandai mengambil hikmah dalam setiap kejadian.

Yang puasa di Malaysia atau di sekitar khatulistiwa bersyukur, puasanya tetap dari tahun ke tahun, sekitar 12 jam! Dan yang puasa di belahan bumi utara, termasuk yang puasa di Moscow walau tetap dibalut kabut asap, juga wajib bersyukur, karena puasanya akan memakan waktu sekitar 17 jam! Berarti gembelingan madrasah Ramadhan lebih berat, namun tetap membawa hikmah.

Apa hikmahnya? Paling tidak jiwa semakin kuat dan semakin tahan terhadap penderitaan akibat iklim yang serba ekstrem dan kabut asap! Yakinlah kabut asap akan berlalu, masih ada matahari di balik kabut! Masih ada kemudahan dibalik kesusahan!

Sekian, selamat menjalankan ibadah Ramadhan 1431 H, semoga amal ibadah kita semua diterima olehNya. Amin.

assalamualaikum semua

2010-06-21T19:34:00.001+08:00

alhamdulillah baru pulang dari berjogging di petang hari ni.
walaupun keluar lambat tapi balik pun taklah lewat sangat
7 to 730 pm
yang penting berpeluh dengan banyak dan badan kekal sihat
lagi satu tujuannya nak kuruskan badan.
hehe
belakangan ni berat semakin naik
so agak risau la.
tu yang nak rajinkan diri turun berlari
kalau tak semakin besar la badan ni.
malam ni pulak ada kelas tuisyen di rumah pelajar di kota damansara.
biasalah, mengembangkan ilmu.(konon ;p)

sekarang ni dah cuti semester..
awal bulan 7 baru sambung semula belajar.
rasa dah tau kan sy blaja kat mane...
tgk la post2 yg sebelum ni kalau nak tau..
ok la friends,sy pegi mandi dulu ya..
yg belum mandi tu silalah mandi k.tapi sorang2 la..
n jgan lupa solat maghrib. :)
take care everyone...

Word of the Day.

2010-03-20T02:18:00.000+08:00

Allah's Mercy over His Wrath

When Allah decreed the Creation He pledged Himself by writing in His book which is laid down with Him:

"My mercy prevails over my wrath."

It was related by Muslim (also by al-Bukhari, an-Nasa'i and Ibn Majah).

My Day Today :) 18 03 2010

2010-03-20T02:16:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum friends.

How are you out there?

I’m feeling good here listening to We Made You (R&B Mix)Eminem feat Jessica Simpson. The sound is just banging into my ears. Wearing this earphone and setting it to nearly the highest volume. I just enjoy it.

Its 219 am in the morning and I don’t feel sleepy yet. So I just came with an idea to put an entry into my blog while enjoying the song.

Let’s talk about what I did today yeah..

I think I have a sleeping disorder because lately I have been sleeping for too much. Its like I woke up and then I move my body to the other side of my bed and then back to sleep again. When it’s too cold, I switch off my small fan on the end of my bed and continue sleeping.. then, when I wake up again still feeling cold I switch off my ceiling fan and continue sleeping. What a habit. I only wake like in the midday. I know it’s shameful but yeah, it’s me and I feel like sharing it today. I was waken up today with a phone call from my friend telling me about the baths(research paper-Arabic) that we have to submit today during Ulum Quran class. Actually, he called and messaged me yesterday but I didn’t manage to reply and answer due to some unavoidable situations. Hahaha.

So yeah, I answered and we made a ‘date’ at the library at 2 o’clock. I came early because I have to do some reading for my Ulum Hadis class at 330. I have a presentation to make, about the holy companion, Umar al-Khattab.

Well, we met. The thing is we are supposed to finish the work during the weekend but then biasalah both of us kept quiet and then when the deadline is just around the corner, both started to menggelabah to finish the work. He did the work on translating the text from English to Arabic, which he managed to do by asking his friend to do it for him…no problem bout that. But tak aci la.. Actually the research paper was about identifying syubhat ( can’t find the right translation rite now in English) towards al-Quran. Basically, it’s about what people said or claim wrongly about the Quran and we have to come up with the radd( the reply/rebuttal) to their claims. So that’s my job and it’s really the better part of the assignment because I get the gist of the research by knowing the reply to their claims.

For me writing* in Arabic language is a bit difficult (read *typing) because I don’t do it often. So we planned to look for the answers from the net so that we can just copy and then paste the answers. You see, being a student you have to know the sources too. Haha.. Though my level is still at the bottom.. Anyway, I searched and searched through the net while he was reading and doing revision for the class today at 500. We have our third midterm(third!!!) today.. What a great lecturer! I like him. We’ll talk about later ya..

So I went back to the original English text and kept on reading until I found a line that looks like an answer to this claim.. And it is actually. And I scold him because it was just there and I had to look all over the net.. nasib baik. And then we translated the text to Arabic and put it in the right place and print it...done one work…I myself started reading and memorizing some points before going to my 330 class..

In class, which was our last class for the blissful semester, there was no lecture but just presentations. I dreaded this day somehow a bit because I don’t fancy presenting but yeah, I still have to do it. So the first one to present was a girl/lady/? (remaja perempuan apa in English, lupa la..asyik dalam bahasa Arab dah lupa bahasa inggeris.haha). Since she’s an Arab, she spoke so fast that at the end of her presentation aka taqdim aka ta’ridh the lecturer asked us “ do u guys understand?” and the girls answered “no”. and he said “ cakap sikit sikit” where in fact he’s an Arab too and it was so funny that the class laughed. Hahaha..

Students keep on going up to the front and then I volunteered to go upfront. Presented casually and had some questions from al-Ustaz Saadeldin, answered and didn’t even manage to finish the presentation he said thank you. Haha.. That’s what happens when you have 10 and more people to present in one day. Students are just too shy or maybe lazy to present in the early or middle days of lecturing.. Anyhow, I managed to present so I’m done there.

Currently listening to Jay Sean Down…

Azan was in the air.. finished class at 450 pm. Went down to the Mosque. U know, UIA has a very beautiful mosque. It’s very comfortable and very not like typical mosques out there. I am very grateful to be studying here somehow if I think back of my enrolment here in this great place. Their Muezzins, such nice and sweet but deep voice, calling people to prayers... I'm just briefly talking about it yeah since its Asar time so wanna share this too. Hehe. Their weekly khutbahs, if u don’t know is delivered in multi languages. Not in one language only.. Let’s say, the first sermon is in English, the second one may be in Arabic, or Malay, or Arabic still. It changes. There was this once when there was a delegation from China and one of them was appointed as the Khatib and he delivered the khutbah in Mandarin! Wow! Though I don’t understand it but I respect them. Then the second khutbah he spoke in Arabic. That I do understand.

Prayed Asar and stopped by at the IRK Computer Lab to check out something. Saw a friend, have a lil chat and continued to class. Came a bit late and directly started answering my exam questions. Wasn’t that difficult because I read some points earlier. My habit is I don’t like studying for exams. I like more reading for knowledge and leisure time but not for answering the exam questions. It just doesn’t feel right. But then again, its university ma… what can do…haha…

Finished the exam 5 to 10 minutes earlier from my friend and went to the lab again. Went online for a while till the lab closes and back at room.

Well, that’s about it for now. My nightlife is so much different from what it is in the day light. Haha..what is that Ismat? Nothing.. come see it for yourself.

2009-11-25T15:37:00.003+08:00

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim..

a peaceful afternoon Wednesday. just lying on the floor in the middle room surfing the net for a while and decided to upload a video.

this video is rather well known,or rather the scripts and the song itself..

it gives so many feelings to a person when he really go with the song, or better called nasyid.

it invites us to realize ourselves. in times when we are far away from Him.

theres not much to write about it.

well let me just write something while waiting for the video to finish uploading.

this video is a manifestation of a servant's obedience to Almighty God, Allah swt..
a man will never be at peace until he comes to a realization that he belongs to Allah and in any way have to subject himself to the will of Allah, be it willingly or unwillingly.

one of the first few lyrics is 'ilaahi lastu lilfirdausi ahlan' which literally means oh my God not have i the privilege of your Firdaus ( the paradise) as someone who can be in it, which shows a situation where he feels that he cant enter the paradise.

what makes that happen?

undoubtedly due to sins, wrongdoings, blameworthy deeds and so on. such notions or even thoughts that are acted upon consciously and subconsciously affect the mind, body and soul. hence the first verse is written.

may we take heed..

May Allah guide us to His path and help us to live through this life.

(it didnt load. i'll try again soon or can just view it http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_vMCfhKr54. its exactly the same.)

good evening

2009-06-09T00:04:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum.
im writing this entry at 0004 am(of course its in the morning).
lets spill out some truth here so that the world knows a few things, not that it really matter.
its just a way to let out what is kept in the heart for quite some while.

i was dismissed from my university for scoring below the allowed grade three times consecutively.
i appealed for a fresh admission to the same university because i loved the place.
i was readmitted in IRK and have now started taking my introductory course.
i will start taking my core courses beginning next semester.

well, 4 lines.. didnt expect it to be so long right..
i dont like to write too long.

there are many friends wondering what really happened..how could you, Ismat have gotten into this situation?
well, its best only for me to know i believe.. actually, there are very few people that knows about this and these people i trust them.. not that i dont trust others, its just you dont go telling off your secrets right man?..

so many things happened in the last 6 7 months.. my life have been turned quite upside down.. there are some good things or news, and there are the not so good news or happenings that took place in my life..

im taking my short semester now.
in Gombak.
i like to make friends, but sometimes you end up somewhere that you hate. you do gain some valuable experience, but there are misfortunes and consequences that comes along with it.

nothing comes and goes unnoticed. as much as you want to hide it, it will eventually pop out, sooner or later. it happened to me.. people noticed.. at least someone said that he noticed. i was shocked for a while and to think about it, it does show.

anyhow, life has to go on.. people have to move on, eventhough its hard..and difficult. Aint it not my fellow friends?

life makes you more mature and more understanding, about the people around you, your parents, your family, your friends and others.

it all comes back to ourselves. whether you want it or not. whether u want to stop it or still want to continue..

life is full of challenges, and opportunities too..
you see it, grab it. dont let is pass you because you never know if it ever comes again.
there might be instances in life that u miss, well, make up to it.
never let the next opportunity on your door goes away like a feather.

have a nice day people.
your doa i hope.

a day off

2009-03-04T14:58:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum everybody. i hope everyone is feeling good today..
the weather is good here in shah alam.
the grass..still green..
the sun..still giving out its unlimited rays of light and heat...
man..having shelters to keep them away from the burning sun..from rains...a place of comfort..
can anybody find a better place than home?
there is one..but not seen..

today is my day off from work. i slept late last night and woke up late in the morning.
just bought a new broadband where you can just plug it in and surf the net.

this morning, as usual i have to send my two brothers to school in Seksyen 13 Shah Alam.. today was a bit better than yesterday and days before that..they woke up earlier today so i don't have to rush in driving them to school. the road will become congested right around 720 am so if i go out later than that gives me another job of waiting in the traffic.

i started working at this book store on monday 2/3/2009 which was on monday. the working hours is from 9 am till 615 pm in the evening, that is if you are working morning shift. if you are doing afternoon shift, you'll be working from 1230 pm to 10 pm..9 hours..such long hours..is it?

in working life one will meet many types of people, no doubt about that.. and i guess im just starting to feel that. people with different attitudes..some work well with each other, some stab others at the back, many are good honest and hardworking people, a few are quite emotional when problems pass by, and many others..

i treat such as many sides of a human..insan..not perfect..one that forgets..same goes to me..
but not to give in to such notion as it might cloud you to make an excuse out of it..
man should strive..for his life in here and..hereafter..
not only for himself..but others that go the same way down into the dirt..

throughout the lives of mankind, man always find ways to answer the questions that life pose to one..

tbc...

waking up in the morning

2009-02-24T12:52:00.004+08:00

waking up in the morning is surely the best thing to do.
its morning and the sun is just about to rise..the air.. so fresh and clean, especially when you have big trees around your house or around your neighbourhood...
just imagine.. feeling the cold water running gently at the tip of your foot when you are just about to get your shower..shivers..

but there's a much sweeter experience than waking up at that time in the morning..that is, you wake an hour or two before morning..yes..what do you say about that..

its so much peaceful..give it a try..whats more peaceful than that is you take a bath and perform the tahajjud...so tranquilizing.....one will feel peace within one's soul..and that is the most important thing in life..

to have peace inside and outside..to know and feel the presence of Allah deep inside your heart..
that is actually what life is all about..serving Him none other...

people seek that what is called inner peace..and none can give it except by His will..and we should ask and pray for it...

as a muslim, and in my personal view, this peace is something that every single person on this earth is searching for..money can't buy it..

tbc...

demam peperiksaan kembali tiba

2008-10-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum kepada teman-teman yang dikasihi..

sepertimana biasa blog ini umpama sarang labah-labah yang sarat dengan binatang mati.
tetapi sudah tiba masanya ( mungkin kali ini buat masa ini) untuk membersihkannya.

semua sedia maklum musim peperiksaan sudah pun tiba. dan semua orang kelihatan begitu sibuk menguruskan hal masing-masing, dengan mengulangkaji pelajaran, membuat nota-nota ringkas buat dihafal dan juga melakukan banyak latihan. ini semua adalah persediaan kita untuk menghadapinya. dan adalah lumrah setiap perkara yang ingin dihadapi itu amat perlu kepada persediaan. peperiksaan, kelas biasa, kuiz, asainment, dan sebagainya.

tanpa melakukan persediaan, kita membuka pintu untuk berlakunya kesilapan dalam kehidupan kita. bila asianment tidak disiapkan, bila kuiz tiada ulangkaji sebelum mendudukinya, dan dengan kelas apabila tidak menghadirkan diri. ini semua merupakan langkah-langkah berjaya bagi seorang manusia untuk gagal.

a broken family

2008-07-02T18:47:00.000+08:00

someone will always find ways, when he is enlightened, to improve himself and to become a better person. and he will do the same thing for his family, his friends, and the people around, and also the whole world, when he is enlightened.
he see's that the world is not in its best condition. he will find ways to solve the problems the world is facing, his family is facing, his society is facing, he is facing.
he realised that to find a solution to all the problems of the world is not a one man job like a superman. that it must be done not individually but collectively, he thus seeks companions. for a big job it is not an individual job. it demands all the people there is available. just like building the skyscrapers of the world, you will not find one guy directing it and building it at the same time. it needs people and it needs a team and it needs one mindset.
then, this someone again realised that in devicing ways to solve problems, he needs people to help him to work together, to advice each other so that one does not slip off the track. and he must have something as a guide in achieving this very big goal.

bermulanya semester pendek 07/08

2008-04-26T13:16:00.000+08:00

Tanggal 28 April 2008 adalah tarikh bermulanya sesi semester pendek UIA.
Tidak semua yang akan melaluinya, hanya sebahagian yang ingin mengisi masa lapang mereka dengan belajar.
Ada juga yang ingin bekerja, mencari wang saku, atau pun menolong ibu ayah di kampung halaman dengan perniagaan dan sebagainya.

Kita lihat bahawa manusia itu, setiap satunya berlainan.

Setiap manusia punya tujuan masing-masing untuk dicapai atau dilaksanakan dalam hidup ini.

Tidak dinafikan.

Tujuan adalah penggerak bagi manusia untuk terus hidup.
Tanpa tujuan manusia tidak ada perkara untuk dilakukan.
Maka, hidup itu sendiri adalah tujuan.

Bagaimana?

Nah, kita sedar bahawa manusia akan terus menduduki bumi ini sampai suatu masa.
Dan manusia yang duduk di atas muka bumi ini akan sentiasa berubah, bertambah maju, bertambah sofistikated, lebih berperadaban, juga bertambah skeptik. Secara amnya, perubahan berlaku dan tiada siapa yang dapat menghentikannya kecuali kematian.

Maka, apakah tujuan yang ingin dicapai oleh manusia?

Jika semuanya berubah, tujuan juga berubah.
Apa yang dapat dilihat adalah proses ini berterusan sampai bila-bila.
Manusia tidak dapat melihat, atas segala perubahan ini, apa yang ingin dicapai.

Apabila manusia dapat menggapai tujuannya, kemudian apa?

Manusia akan mula pula berfikir akan sesuatu yang mana ada pada semua manusia, yang mana manusia perlukan agar mereka merasa tenteram, agar manusia tidak sentiasa hidup 'bertujuan' dengan tujuan masing-masing tanpa henti.

Islam adalah tujuan sebenar manusia.

Bukankah begitu?

Adakah kita begitu?

Sharing.

2007-12-08T23:49:00.000+08:00

Salam friends…

How is everybody at the moment? I hope everyone is fine insyaallah. I will like to post something like a question here so that we all can discuss. Let me start.

It was my first UNGS 2050 class, stands for Islam, Ethics and Fiqh for everyday Life. So, the lecturer was giving an introduction while at the same time going into some topics in the course. He talked about Muslim people, their population and how this influences the increasing number of Muslims in the world. He said that the very big population of Muslim today is MAINLY due to the increasing number of Muslim child being born, the reproductivity of the Muslim people themselves, not because of the big number of non-Muslims converting to the religion Islam, and also not because of the hard and continuous work of the Muslim preachers in spreading the Din.

So, the question is, is what he said is true? Has it got basis? I will leave this as it is and I shall wait for your opinions/comments and will publish them here. Just want us to have a jolly discussion.

Till then, take care.

a death tonight...

2007-11-29T01:13:00.000+08:00

Around 2200 today, my mother asked me to accompany her to our TUDM Mosque, in Shah Alam.
My father told me before that there was a death, and as xTUDMs, we felt obliged to attend it.
So, after changing my clothes and taking ablution, we drove off to the mosque which was about 10 minutes from our house in Bukit Jelutong.
In the vehicle, I asked my mother who is this person that passed away.
She said that this dear woman was an acquaintance of her when we used to live in TUDM Subang.
They used to play volleyball together along with other women.
Well, that must be sad.
And to add to that, she died because of cancer.
When we arrive there, people were gathering at the left side of the mosque where the place to Wash the 'jenazah' is situated.
So my mother went ahead where the ladies were and I headed for the men.
I knew only few out of these people over there because they were working people, I mean, my father would have known them rather than me.
I just stood there watching from outside, the ladies preparing to wash the 'jenazah'.
While standing, I observed there are people having some conversations, here and there, some are smoking, and some are just like me, watching and doing nothing.
I remembered I have not prayed isya' at that time due to some matters so I went inside the mosque and found two people were praying and I, without wasting any time joined up.
It is narrated that congregational prayer is more loved in the sight of Allah by 27 times.
Is not that a lot?
Let’s say that if I work alone, I only get RM1, but if I work with a pair, I get RM27...?
Just an analogy though, it does not suppose to be the exact meaning. =)
anyways, after praying, I went back to the people and still, doing the same thing, watch.
Somehow I felt touched, to see people not really into this death thing, you know what I mean?
Truly I believe that, when one attends such ceremony, that is a death of someone, especially one that is dear to you, you will feel too much and you cannot stop that feeling from affecting you.
Whether you try to hide your face and your tears from falling down, or you let it be.
I don't know, maybe different people different experience.
Whatever it is, emotions, sometimes they are good for you. Not to mention crying.
But being mad is no, as a branch of emotions itself because this one is killing.
Prophet once said don't be angry and he repeated it three times emphasizing how not good it is to get mad or angry.
Crying, I see it in another perspective that it helps to cool the heart in one way. I believe and through experience, crying has many benefits and also, it comes in many ways to you. You don't just cry when you are angry, do you? What I mean here is crying, there must be situations that make you want to cry.
I think I deviated from my story already. We will continue about crying tomorrow Insha’Allah ok. =)
so, then I went back inside the mosque to make some doa' for this lady. tell you the truth, even though I don't know her, inside I feel like she's very dear to me. and when I saw her two boys crying outside, it really touched me.
two little innocent kids losing their mom..
quite a trial.
maybe this is the outcome of the so called brotherhood in Islam that a lot of people do not see.
I am also saying this to myself.
we Muslims must have what you call in Arabic as ghirah(غيرة) towards the Muslims among themselves.
meaning, we feel for each other, we sympathize and empathize for whatever that is happening to our fellow Muslims, the tortures, slain, plights, and also assaults made and launched by the enemies of Muslims.
we must really feel for them.
be them Chinese, Indians, Indonesians, Myanmars, Vietnamese, or any other race that exist on the face of this world.
sometimes we only see the white, good looking people in our hearts, not our kind.
by kind I mean faith.
this should not happen my brothers and sisters.
sometimes we see people of the same color as the same as us and we treat them normal, but when we meet up new other-color people from the outside, we treat them one of a kind, that goes to you too ismat.
I don't mean that white people are to be kept away from or what not. they are the same as us, human beings that need love and care.
people like to see beauty don't they..?same here.
but when we realize that this beauty is not what we are striving for, not what we are made to have, we would gradually see other people who are not as lucky as we are, not as rich as we are, and not as good looking as we are, if we are.
our hearts will become more soft and easily touched.
and this can be achieved by taqarrub ilaLlah.....

Well, that's it for now, until we meet again...

demam peperiksaan berakhir sudah...

2007-11-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

bismillah

assalamualaikum semua.
kembali semula setelah sekian lama menghilangkan diri, mungkin hampir 2 bulan, mungkin lebih!
apa pun, biarlah apa yang telah dikata kerana saya telah pun kembali semula.
sebenarnya bukanlah hobi saya menulis dengan panjang lebar meluahkan segala isi hati dan perasaan dalam sebuah 'blog' agar dapat dibaca oleh semua orang, tetapi saya menulis atas dorongan teman- teman baik, yang saya percaya ada faedahnya dalam saranan mereka suatu hari kelak.
minggu yang lalu saya telah melalui fasa terakhir semester 1 07/ 08 dengan peperiksaan yang berakhir pada Ahad, 4/11/2007. alhamdulillah, segalanya berjalan lancar walaupun di sana ada kekurangan yang banyak. insyaallah doakan segalanya baik.
semasa 'examination period', banyak perkara yang saya fikirkan, banyak juga perkara yang saya lalui, dan selain itu banyak juga perkara yang bakal saya lalui.
apa yang saya fikirkan?
pertamanya, ketika musim peperiksaan itu, pada hakikatnya saya langsung tidak mempunyai persediaan yang rapi disebabkan satu faktor penting, iaitu diri saya.
seperti pepatah Inggeris yang berbunyi,'everything begins within you'.
semudah itu sebenarnya diri kita ini.
bukanlah maksud saya segalanya mudah, tetapi setiap sesuatu itu bermula dengan kehendak kita.
jikalau kita inginkan kejayaan dalam kehidupan ini, kita perlu berusaha, bukan begitu?.
dan sebaliknya, kehidupan tanpa usaha adalah kegagalan.
sepertimana firman Allah swt di dalam al- Quran yang mafhumnya, ALlah tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum itu selagimana kaum itu tidak mahu berubah.
mafhum ayat yang mudah difahami, iaitu kita sendiri yang perlu ada keinginan untuk berubah barulah Allah akan memberikan bantuan dalam perubahan itu.
kembali semula kepada perkara yang dibincangkan, keinginan saya untuk menduduki peperiksaan tiada kerana tiada persediaan, kurang atau tiada motivasi untuk mentelaah pelajaran, kurang/ tiada persekitaran/ bi'ah yang membina, juga malas.
dipendekkan cerita, alhamdulillah Allah itu Maha Penyayang dan Pengatur segala sesuatu, saya dapat juga menggagahkan diri untuk menjadi lebih bersemangat- walaupun pada saat akhir peperiksaan, dan alhamdulillah saya dapat menjawab dengan tenang...
apa yang saya tulis tentang faktor- faktor penghalang di atas bukanlah agar teman mengikuti langkah- langkah itu- semestinya tidak- tetapi adalah untuk menjadi benteng atau batas dalam menjalani hidup seharian sebagai seorang pelajar di sekolah, kolej, universiti, mahupun hidup.
hidup kita, kita yang tentukan, disertai dengan usaha, doa dan tawakkal kepada Allah swt. nasihat serta saranan daripada guru, ibu bapa, teman- teman, kita terima dan fikir- fikirkan.
nasihat itu sebenarnya adalah hak kita.
apabila kita meminta saudara kita memberi nasihat, dia harus memberikan nasihat, walaupun merasa diri tidak layak dalam maksud untuk memenuhi hak sebagai saudara muslim.
saya secara peribadi setuju dengan sistem peperiksaan, tetapi bukanlah sepenuhnya kerana kadang- kadang kita hanya belajar semata- mata untuk menjawab peperiksaan, bukan untuk diambil untuk masa depan kita.
kebaikannya pula, pelajaran lepas yang telah kita pelajari kita muraja'ah semula agar tidak lupa dan di situ akan timbul kembali semangat untuk mula rajin belajar.
apa pun, janganlah kita menjadikan peperiksaan itu alasan untuk tidak berjaya dalam kehidupan, sebaliknya jadikanlah ia sebagai pemangkin untuk bergerak ke hadapan.
kerana sebagai seorang muslim adalah merupakan suatu tanggungjawab untuk menuntut ilmu.
sungguh banyak ilmu yang telah ditinggalkan oleh para ulama kita terdahulu untuk kita semua, hanya atas diri kita sendiri untuk menuntutnya kembali dan mengembangkannya.
mereka semua adalah contoh- contoh tauladan yang terbaik buat kita semua, seperti ibn Khaldun, ibn Sina, ibn Rusyd, al- Khwarizmi, al- Razi, dan ramai lagi di mana yang disebutkan hanyalah sebahagian kecil daripada kelompok cendekiawan Islam yang agung.

kita bagaimana?

Ramadhan...your already half gone...

2007-09-27T01:58:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakaatuh brothers and sisters in Islam!

may all of us feel greatly and get carried away as far as possible with the blessed month of RAMADHAN!!! =)

there is not a better time, in fact i can say the best time, in anyone's life to really be racing in doing 'amal ibadah' than this month.

so, anybody out there need to be told to start racing?!!! i guess not.

maybe some people understand and appreciate how this month is so special to them that they forgot to tell it to others...

but, there are also those out there that don't even know:
-->what do we have to do in this Ramadhan?
-->why do we have to read the Quran more when it's Ramadhan?
-->is Ramadhan that important?
-->why people have to change when it's Ramadhan?
-->why people have to give more charity in the Ramadhan?
-->why people look more 'alim' (some might even have the thought 'konon-konon alim') in Ramadhan?
-->why do we have to pray Tarawikh?
-->why is Tarawikh only in Ramadhan
-->and many more questions that, sincerely saying as a muslim, that we must know...

some people just(with a long u sound) like to dispute over small 'furu''things such as:
>>why do you pray 8, not 20?
>>why do you pray 20, not 8?
>>Tarawikh prayer is more important than Fard prayer
>>reading the Quran without 'penghayatan' (lupa la bahasa inggerisnya)

and some don't even bother to do anything in this so very very blessed month of Ramadhan...

really sad...

ila marrah akhar...=)

sorry everybody =)

2007-09-18T23:38:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum and a very good evening to everybody, especially to my friends who have been continuously asking me to update my blog. thanks for the so many pushes now that i am able to force my fingers to type again.

to tell you the truth, the first time i registered this blog, that was the first time i made a post until now. what a bad attitude, don't you people think so?!

anyway, let us not talk about myself alone. let's now ponder upon our own selves.

hey, that sounds interesting, dontcha think so? pondering upon our own selves... who have even done that before...

probably out there, there are many among us that do this thing all the time which is usually termed as 'muhasabah'.

well, that's just a probability.

my sincere opinion, not many. and to tell the truth, i seldom do it. why? well, the negative part of the self which is called 'nafsu' in my language will straight away answer:
it's a waste of time,
sleeping is better,
aah,
maybe some other time... and so on and the list goes on... that's typical i guess.

to be continued...

syukur...

2007-08-09T18:53:00.000+08:00

Yea.. Ana kembali bersinar!!

alhamdulillah...alhamdulillah...alhamdulillah...ku rafa'kan kesyukuran yang tidak terhingga kepada Pencipta sekalian manusia, Allah swt.

rasa syukur tidak terhingga kepadaNya, memberi masa lagi kepada hamba ini untuk mengambil helaan nafas yang seterusnya, hingga tiada lagi selepas itu yang pasti datang kecuali kematian menjemput tiba.

saudara dan saudari yang dikasihi sekalian, pesanan yang utama dan patut diutamakan adalah mengajak manusia untuk mengenali Allah.

kenapa?